Hustle, Influence, and Business Success

Chasing success and losing stability became a painful pattern that affected my faith, relationships, emotions, and business journey.

In my mid-twenties, I met a woman who owned a daycare. Her hustle was intense, and her grind was disciplined and consistent. admired her determination and studied her strategies closely because I wanted to understand how she moved. Watching her discipline taught me the importance of focus, consistency, and structure. Her strong work ethic inspired me to pay attention to every move she made in business.

She stayed organized and focused, always knowing exactly what she wanted. Her ability to position herself for success stood out to me. With the knowledge, discipline, and mindset of a successful businesswoman, she carried herself with confidence and purpose. Watching her build her business inspired me to change my own life.

Building Success Through Influence

I wanted to learn how she moved. I paid
attention to all her moves and strategies. She stayed organized and focused, always knowing exactly what she wanted. Her ability to position herself for success stood out to me. With the knowledge, discipline, and mindset of a successful businesswoman, she carried herself with confidence and purpose. Watching her build her business inspired me to change my own life. Watching her build her business inspired me to change my own life.

Finding Peace Through Business Success

Instead of allowing anxiety, pain, and toxic relationships to control me, I turned that energy into motivation. I opened my own daycare and finally found a sense of peace. For a short time, life felt stable. However, I slowly allowed business, comfort, and distractions to distance me from the spirit of God.

Faith, Relationships, and Emotional Stability

During that season, I was engaged to a man who did not value my worth or emotional well-being. Deep down, I wanted to leave the relationship, but the situation felt toxic and emotionally draining. Then I received news that someone I truly loved was in jail and would soon be released. That moment changed everything for me emotionally and spiritually.

Love, Loss, and Starting Over

It felt like the man I was engaged to and the man I truly loved had traded places in my life. Surprisingly, I did not have to fight to leave the relationship because the man I was engaged to eventually went to jail. Although the situation hurt deeply, it also gave me the opportunity to walk away from a relationship that no longer brought peace into my life.

Love, Loss, and Homelessness

At first, the relationship felt comforting and familiar, almost like I had finally found stability again.

Broken Love, Betrayal, and Emotional Collapse

But what I believed was love eventually revealed itself as lust — a spirit that nearly destroyed me.

I thought things would finally get better, but life became one of my worst nightmares. Standing on the edge of losing my daycare made me realize the man I loved had become part of a painful cycle in my life. Chaos began tearing apart my relationships, business, and emotional stability.

Eventually, I let him go after discovering he was involved with a correctional officer he met while in jail. Learning the truth shattered me even more, especially knowing she later became the woman he married.

A Costly Lesson Through Loss and Survival

During that difficult season, I almost lost a close friend in a serious car accident. She survived, but the passenger lost their life. In addition, she was facing fraud and homicide charges, which caused her to lose her daycare.

I stood beside her through court dates and emotional trials while also struggling with the loss of my business, emotional pain from toxic relationships, and the fear of becoming homeless. During that season, I felt lonely, overwhelmed, and emotionally vulnerable.

During that time she invited me to church. On the way there, a woman I noticed at a stoplight seemed to follow me for miles. When I became confused about directions, I rolled down my window to ask her for help.

She replied, “Follow me. I’m headed there now.”

Divine Encounter and New Beginnings

When we arrived, she began reading scriptures during service, looking directly at me as if every word was meant for my life. It felt personal. It felt divine. I knew God was using her to reach me.

She told me I was blessed. At the time, I didn’t fully understand what that meant.

But something shifted.

I began praying daily. Reading the Word. Writing down goals. Aligning my vision.

Losing Myself While Searching for Peace

Meanwhile, I was feeling vulnerable, lonely, and emotionally exhausted. I needed someone to talk to, and during that season, I met someone who became a very close friend. We talked every day, and it seemed like he understood me and the pain I was going through.

Over time, our friendship slowly turned into a serious relationship, something I honestly was not expecting. Things slowly started getting out of hand, and I felt like I no longer had control over the situation or my emotions. I became confused, emotionally overwhelmed, and mentally drained.

Emotional Traps and Toxic Relationships

At first, the connection felt comforting because I was emotionally vulnerable and searching for peace after everything I had already been through. But over time, I began feeling trapped, almost like I was locked inside a box waiting for someone to let me out.

Even though deep down I knew the relationship was unhealthy, walking away was not easy. During that season, I prayed, cried, and asked God to forgive me for my sins. while trying to understand why my life kept falling into painful cycles.

Chasing Stability Through Business Opportunities

After some time, life slowly began to improve. I found a new place to live, and while my friend continued fighting her case and going back and forth to court, we decided to open a restaurant together. At first, I believed this business opportunity would help us rebuild our lives. However, disturbing rumors involving her and the property owner caused the rent to increase. In addition, we struggled to agree on important business decisions and often clashed because of our different ideas, experiences, and visions for the business.
Eventually, the pressure became too much, and the business failed.

I eventually decided to reopen my daycare and give it a new name. I believed God had given me another chance, but I still leaned on my own understanding instead of fully surrendering to His guidance.

Although things appeared to be improving on the outside, I had not fully healed or surrendered on the inside. Looking back, I now realize that decision shaped many of the lessons and struggles that followed.

Chasing Success and Losing Stability Through Relationships

What was destroying me slowly became a pattern mentally, emotionally, physically, and verbally. Meanwhile, I continued to feel trapped in an unexpected relationship with a friend who had no intentions of commitment and instead chose to cheat and live in lies.

Some days, it felt like Satan himself had come to visit, bringing chaos, confusion, and heaviness into my life. What started as occasional drinking slowly turned into something that happened every day.

Faith, Relationships, and Emotional Stability

Holidays and cookouts became a normal part of life at my house. I often woke up with hangovers and started my day late in the evening, only to repeat the same cycle of partying and socializing all over again.

However, I continued to conduct business, even though my vision had become blurred. God began to make it clear that I needed to remove myself from the chaos—what I had come to know as disrespect, selfishness, and foolishness.This season of chasing success and losing stability changed my faith, emotions, and relationships.